Intersection 17

When opportunities meet anxiety...

I was quite sure that I wanted to teach after I have decided to leave Manila. After a month of having neither an obligation to a school or to a job, I felt the need to look for career opportunities. My impulsive search began by scanning the phone book. After gathering my courage to call schools to inquire for possible job openings, I let my fingers dial the numbers of different schools. Two of them gave me positive feedback, inviting me to drop by the school to give my resume.

Ecstatic. My random trial has given me a few things to look forward to. What I didn't expect was the difficulty that followed next.

I applied for the pre-school teacher position. However, one of the two schools offered me the opportunity to be the sole guidance counselor of the school next academic year. I was surprised by the offer, primarily because it seemed more than what I was asking for. I felt overwhelmed by the possible responsibilities I could have on my shoulders. It was a challenge I was interested in.

And the idea of having two options suddenly became too scary.

My applications for both schools progressed at the same time, leaving me little room to really weigh the pros and cons of each opportunity. The choices seemed to be based on a difference of change in perspective and gaining professional experience. There are also many factors that I need to consider, and I don't want to be selfish. But I would also want to do something I think can help me more.

I still don't know how I will get to my decision. I have asked some people's opinions about this dilemma of mine, and so far, votes are coming in for both options. I am not sure what I'm looking for. Validation of my thoughts? Reassurance that my decision will be for the better? The support I need if ever I will come across major crossroads towards my career goals? Or just wanting to know how people view me in the options?

I have read something about a possible solution when one is experiencing doubt. It's about tossing a coin, assigning one option to heads and another to tails. Once the coin is in the air, you're supposed to know what side you'd want the coin to land on. I can do that with my problem as well, but I'm really not ready to solidly hope for only one option to come up above the other.

What do I do? This can be something that can really be solved easily. Or it can be something that can decide major events in the near future. I'll be asking for a sign from Him, that He may lead me to where I am more needed. To the place where I am bound to learn what I need.

I hope you find good opportunities soon.

Until the next anxiety attack,

Myra

(Credits to thebridgemaker.com for the photo)